Jan 14

This morning I'd like to thank God for all He's done for me. Yeah, having this illness stinks, but He's really with me. I can feel His presence very strongly so I know all those prayers are working. There are a lot of other chemo patients on this ward, Deb said she thinks all the beds are filled, and we hear patients who are really having a tough time of it. My symptons have been fevers, but they gave me medication that began diminishing them on the second day and getting rid of them on the fourth day. I've had chills and night sweats from the fevers, but they went away with the fevers. God has really taken care of me in here. I'd also gotten depressed at times thinking about my prognosis, and God has gotten me out of the depression too! I started saying the very beginning of the 23rd Psalm," The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want." This has put my attitude in perspective when it needed to be. WHAT I NEED, GOD WILL SUPPLY AND HE WILL GUIDE ME THRU THIS!!! My counts came back today, white is .7, hemoglobin is 10.7, and the platelets are at 70. The platelets are very high today and the doctor had told me that when my blood began working again, the platelets would come up first. This could be really good news but we'll wait and see what the doctor says! Deb had a good night sleep at home and is getting ready to come down this morning. Dave and Dana got the flu yesterday, but they are fine today. It can be really tough being sick like that and still having to take care of little ones! The heater in our house broke last night and we also broke a water line. They are both scheduled to be fixed but just some more things to worry about. My cel phone also has been giving me trouble so I called and they are mailing me a replacement which won't get here for 5 days at least, so you can try me at my cel but it might disconnect. Deb and I were thinking what's next but then we understood that whatever happens next God will be there to get us thru it, pretty cool, huh? Deb stayed all day and we played cards and talked like we usually do, I had a pretty good day except for a short time of doubt. I used the 23rd Psalm opening to bring me back. God bless you all!
IN HIS HANDS,
Ernie