Feb 19

Another doctor came by today (mine is on vacation) and said that I should be able to go home on Wednesday. This was disappointing because on Sunday the doctor told me I could go home on Tuesday. When today's doctor saw that I was disappointed, she said let's just see what happens tomorrow. I think this might be the hardest time in the hospital when it's a day to day decision for when I go home! I really want to go home too, but here I am WAITING again! LOL! I still feel very blessed. There is a man who keeps calling the nurses very loudly every few seconds for 5 minutes at a time and he sounds like he is hurting or needs something very badly. I don't know about this particular man but the nurses say that they get people in here with dementia who don't really know that they are yelling. I still feel sorry for them. Do you know who I really feel sorry for? I feel sorry for the children and their families who get cancer or some other debilitating disease. It must be very frightening for them to go thru all they must go thru. It just came to me that when we think of people like that who get cancer or whatever that because it doesn't affect us directly we just kind of blow it off and forget them after we walk away from them. We sometimes have the attitude that it will never happen to us, or we don't want to even think about it because we know that it can happen to us and we don't want to think about all the bad things that will occur if it does. I remember the first week when I was diagnosed, it was a tough week. It was really sobering when I was told that I had leukemia, I almost felt like it had to be a mistake, like they got names mixed up and I would get a call the next day to tell me that everything was OK. It makes me want to do something to try to make people feel better when they go thru this stuff, but I don't know what that would be. Maybe I'll think about that!
IN HIS HANDS,
Ernie