Jan 5

I took an ativan and slept very soundly last night. I had a good time of worship again this morning. They told me from the beginning that today would by my worst day, but I still feel remarkably well (so far). I went out to the waiting room around 5a.m. looking for the sunrise only to discover later in the day the sun doesn't come up this time of year til around 7 (ok so I'm not a weather person LOL!). My blood counts were good today, no transfusion. Debby got to come today, she's feeling much better, but we still can't touch eachother because she might infect me. I feel so much better when she comes, we've been thru a lot together! I had my bone marrow biopsy today, but won't know the results until sometime next week. We are actually wanting there to be no leukemia left in my blood right now, so that would be a specific prayer request if you don't mind. If there are no signs of it now, then we move on to the consolidation chemo. If there are signs of it, we go back and do the infusion chemo again and start all over. Don't really want to start all over but, THY WILL BE DONE!!! There are some in here who have much worse symtoms from the chemo than me and they might not have anyone praying for them, so could you all include them in your prayers? God is powerful enough to handle it, thanks! This biopsy was a little more painful than the first, but still nothing to the extent I always heard it would be. Debby and I walked to the waiting room after it was over not knowing they didn't want me out of bed for a couple of hours after the procedure. oops! My nurse came looking for me and made me get back into bed (bad boy). I thought I had given up my life of crime!!! LOL!!!! I actually walked around immediatily and even went to work after the first one! I've got to clear something up right away! For those of you who read the comments people write, and especially those who read the comments from my former niece and daughter who said I wear pink pajamas? FAGETABOUTIT!!!! Guys at the shop, no really, my pajamas are blue. No really! Blue! Awe come on guys, blue! LOL! The girls and I had a good laugh about it on the phone so why not laugh on the blog too! LOL! (blue!) I'm remembering that song," If I Could Only Imagine" where the guy was thinking about what it would be like in heaven and just as a thought provoker, may I ask you all a couple of questions? The first one is this. If you were to die today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? Interesting, huh? The second question is this, "If you were to die today and stand before almighty God and He were to say to you," Why should I let you into my heaven", what would your answer to Him be? Think about it, more tomorrow! I want to thank all of you who have emailed me. I actually look forward to your emails, they not only give me strength but make me feel that I'm still in touch with the world. The room I'm in has 3 walls and one whole side that's a window with blinds. Even if you open the blinds to see out, there is a catwalk, and on the outside of the catwalk are some slats that make it just about impossible to see out. It could get lonely and depressing in here, but you're emails and comments on the blog ensure that it doesn't. Thank you again so much and keep those emails coming, even if you don't know me!
IN HIS HANDS,
Ernie
(BLUE!)